Memories path。

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2011-02-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

A-Lin - 给我一个理由忘记

雨都停了这片天灰什黱呢
我还记得你说我们要快乐
深夜里的脚步声总是刺耳
害怕寂寞就让狂欢的城市陪我关灯
只是哪怕周围再多人感觉还是一个人
每当我笑了心却狠狠的哭著

给我一个理由忘记那黱爱我的你
给我一个理由放弃当时做的决定
有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
而最痛的距离是你不在身边却在我的心里

当我走在去过的每个地方
总会听到你那最自由的笑
当我回到一个人住的地方
最怕看到冬天你最爱穿的那件外套
只是哪怕周围再多人感觉还是一个人
每当我笑了心却狠狠的哭著

给我一个理由忘记那黱爱我的你
给我一个理由放弃当时做的决定
有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
而最痛的距离是你不在身边却在我的心里

我找不到理由忘记大雨里的别离
我找不到理由放弃我等你的决心
有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
而最痛的距离是你不在身边却在我的心里
我想你

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2011-02-26T21:04:00.004+08:00

My dog sunny, gave birth for the 3rd time! this time she gave birth to 10 little puppies, which mean our house got 17 dogs altogether now. oh em gee! O.O it's like the number of our dogs are more than the human. -___-

nah, breast-feeding 24/7. who asked her so hiao! hmphh.

now, we're headache about what to do with the new born puppies. whether to sell it or give it. one of my uncle say sell it while another uncle say give it. anyone interested in puppies? please leave a message in my CBOX there. i'll give you FOC. :) BUT, you have to take good care of them. FYI, our family love dogs very much. so if you plan to take them just to look after your house then i'm sorry. It's because we have no choice, can't keep too much dog under one roof to prevent from complain of the neighbours. If not, we will keep it for sure. so just leave me a message or something if you're interested. thanks!

Oh, happy weekend everyone! I'm staying at home tonight. no need to doubt about it, i am just sick of going out everyday and that's why.

Imma get myself a new cheap phone and use it temporarily first, before i get my BB9780! okay, im just anxious of getting myself something new and I'm really sick of my old phone. haha!

this, LG Cookie! I choose this, because i love the outlook! pinkish ~ too bad, this phone don't have purple color. but it's okay, pink also not bad. I'm okay with it. actually i plan to buy LG Lollipop but then i don't like flip phone. so yeah.. you'll be my temporary baby before i get my BB. :p

It's like you wait until I'm happy again and then you decide to walk right back into my life.

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2011-02-23T13:29:00.003+08:00

happy national day to Brunei. :)

Just a blink of eye, CNY is over. how fast was that? seriously, this CNY really don't feel like CNY at all. i spent most of my time gambling only. my lucks not bad this year laa. HEHE!

above is the video of our dancing performance for CNY celebration.

got the 2nd place yo, don't play play!

okay, please do not laugh when you watch it (although i already did).

I'm the one with yellow belt. yeah i know, i look like those lazy people with no strength to dance. :(

I dyed my hair to brownish! but i don't like it. eeee! cos the color were TOO bright. i expect it to be darker tho.

see the highlight, too light! oh em gee~ even my uncle also told me that i looked like 'la moi' which mean those malay mixed with iban etc! I'm not racists laa, just that i really don't look like chinese even though im pure chinese.

well, too much thing happened within this one month. but no matter what, i won't let it bring me down again cos i promised myself to stay happy always! :)

I'll just go with the flow.

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2011-01-21T21:35:00.003+08:00

Hello all ! I'm back. :D

was pretty busy for the past few weeks.

well, most of my time are occupied by the work recently.

yes, i found a new job here. never think that i will start to work again that fast. was thinking about after CNY then start, who knows they want me to start earlier! sigh.

back to old life, work work and work. looked back, i only rest for one and a half month. sadlife :(

but yeah, it's alright. better than stay at home doing nothing without any income right?

talk about CNY. i still haven't buy any new clothes, shoes, bags, accessories YET ! and my hair, eyebrow all still in a mess. ohmygod ohmygod ! time is running. those nice shirts are already bought by others for sure. :/ Gonna go down miri and look for everything on sunday. hopefully it's still not late yet.

im not really looking forward to CNY tho. somemore, i only got 2 days leaves which is on the 3rd and the 4th of february. wonder if i still can get angpao or not uh. HAHAHA!

something for girls out there :

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2011-01-05T15:35:00.003+08:00

I wanted to blog so much !!!

but then , uhh .. I've no mood to write down all the thing that happened to me in details like last time again . :'(

I've been through a lot recently, really a lot. no need to guess, It's all the bad thing.

Good thing never happen to me.

I care too much for people who don't care for me at all.

I have to stop expecting.

I should let go of the wrong things/person in my life.

Should have less regret.

and lastly, I wont let anyone/anything bring me down in 2011.

Oh, this is not a new year resolution. This is just something like 'note to myself'.

I have to wake up, yes, wake up! No more heartache, overdosed myself with negative thoughts, waiting and emo.

All i have to do is: stay optimistic all the time and let go of the past and move on.

Let's make 2011 a great year for myself! My legal year. hou yeahhh ~ ! :D

and of course, my resolutions for this year are well-ly planned. will see if i can do it or not.

I'll keep it to myself first. privacy privacy* teehee!

Gonna work hard to archive my goals this year!

Cheer everyone! and, happy new year (belated) !

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2011-01-03T15:14:00.002+08:00

For all of the times that I tried for your smile

For making you think that I was worth the while

So your love would be mine ..

Sorry that I loved you.

Sorry that I needed you.

Sorry I was falling in love with you.

I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time.

& now that you're gone and i'm left alone once again with my broken heart.

I'm hereby to wish you all the best with your new girl . :')

Thanks for all the disappointment that you gave. I've learn my lesson. I won't put my hopes too high and fall for guys that easily ever again.

Take care ~

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2010-12-28T14:53:00.004+08:00

Check this songs out !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3RyRvrawbDQ

傅健颖 - 以为你还在

钢琴上的键 弹不出明天

一双手要怎样 要怎样才能够撑住一片天

明天 已经很遥远 一个人要怎样 要怎样伪装自己勇敢向前

我以为你还在 我还等着你回来  一起看海拥抱海的澎湃

数到三还不来  回忆不释怀 我在等待  可是你怎么都不会回来

键 弹不出明天 一双手要怎样 要怎样才能够撑住一片天

明天已经很遥远 一个人要怎样 要怎样伪装自己勇敢向前

我以为你还在 想念的雾散不开 一场意外谁把我救出来

 数到三还不来 期待已变坏 留下只是寂寞里那种无声黑白

我以你你还在 我还等着你回来 一起看海拥抱海的澎湃

数到三还不来 回忆不释怀 我在等待 可是你永远都不会回来

hoo ~

我以为你还在

wooo ~

在不在 你还在不在 不在回来

 泪水淋湿了无奈 我还在空无等待

我以为你还在 我还等着你回来 一起看海拥抱海的澎湃

数到三还不来 回忆不释怀

我在等待 可是你永远都不会回来

♥

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2010-11-18T14:12:00.005+08:00

My new found love - Meiji's Hello Panda Biscuits !

there are several flavors like strawberry, vanilla & cheese. however, i still prefer the original flavor that is, chocolateee !

aww .. heaven ! ;) whenever it comes to snack, i will choose hello panda for sure ! more than anything else . teehee :D :D

Went to Bandar last few days for movie !

@cheezbox. oh em gee ! i love my new hair ! HEHEH. ^^

watched Skyline & Unstoppable . hmm .. still OK . not really like both of the movie tho . i want something h-o-r-r-o-r ! yes, horror ! hahah .

;; tell me how to say goodbye, i know i've tried a million times.

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2010-11-15T19:45:00.002+08:00

你一个人失了魂　清晨哭到夜深

不要别人问　我不出声　一直等

听你说你心疼　当时好傻　好天真

如果可以我愿意　这样陪你到永恒

让我照顾你　面对再大的风雨

也能微笑做自己像个孩子躺在我怀里

让我照顾你　在这荒芜世界里

就算有新的剧情　在明天等着你

然而在你最需要的此刻请让我轻抚你

总有一天会有人　一个懂你的人　

让你从此不心疼　

如果可以我愿意　这样陪你到永恒

让我照顾你　面对再大的风雨

也能微笑做自己像个孩子躺在我怀里

让我照顾你　在这荒芜世界里

就算有新的剧情　在明天等着你

然而在你最需要的此刻请让我照顾你

你看破了虚伪　拆穿爱的假面

后悔曾经为他付出一切

我会在你身边　当你伤心欲绝

不奢望你偶然垂怜

让我照顾你　面对再大的风雨

也能微笑做自己像个孩子躺在我怀里

让我照顾你　在这荒芜世界里

就算有新的剧情　在明天等着你

当你对这世界失去信任请让我照顾你

this is sweet ! ♥

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2010-11-04T21:22:00.002+08:00

Michael Steamboat .

Went to Michael Steamboat with Albert, Loh, Jvin & Cindy yesterday . we bought butter nearby my hostel before heading there, cos we don't want to use their oil to fry. butter is much more healthier yo! ^^ reached there around 7.3opm and, we eat until 10.3o ! was proud to say that, we're the last customer to leave. hahah ! plan to compete with Jvin, see who can bear until the very end. but then i gave up half way through eating, cos i can feel that the foods are full until my throat already, like can't even swallow a single drop of water anymore . == huhu ! no more steamboat for me within this few weeks first, if not i think i might get fed up with it tho it's my favorite. *uackk*

2 more days to heaven ;;

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2010-11-02T22:55:00.009+08:00

Yesterday was my last day with Melilea , say Goodbye ~ and in the other hand, say Hello to delicious food again ! :)

Had my favorite Pearl Milk Tea just now.

another one, my all time favorite sharkfin soup ! yum yum ~

went to IBS Sparkling night on Friday. well, let picture do the talking part.

Beatrice and me.

with the EMP(s)

Good good news for me! My registration for Brunei PR (permanent resident) was finally approved by the government! woohoo ~ and yes, i already got my Red IC by today. so that's mean, I'm officially belongs to Brunei now! Bruneian babe! I'm Bruneian now, like now! :D :D :D Been waiting for ages! teehee ^^ thanks to my late dad who keep on blessing us in everything we do ♥

Four more days to go, and i will be release from the 'hell' . can't wait, i can't wait! been torturing by the old women for almost one year. now it's time for me to take my revenge! hopefully i can complete my 'plan' successfully *evil smile* ^^ pray for the next person whoever come and replace me will enjoy the job :) although i know that it's an impossible thing. cos so far i know, no one can bear with the department over one year. either 3 months , 6 months or 8 months. so yeah, good luck to the next staff! HEHEHE. I'm so gonna enjoy the rest of the days with my friends here. eaT eAT & EAT ! so yeah, don't be surprise if you see the 'fat' may! XD

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2010-10-28T21:35:00.004+08:00

people can be very annoying sometimes.

here is someone that I've met. umkay, let's name him A.

this A. we started off as a normal friend. he act nicely when we first met. he sponsored every meal we had, helped us out in everything and know how to think of others. but as we know each other longer, things started to change. we find out that he only act nicely in front of girls. he is so CHEAP that he go and borrow money from friend just to treat girls eat those expensive meals like sushiking, pizzahut, starbucks and etc. he even sacrifice his meals and buy those cheap bread to eat himself, bear with the hunger just to show girls how wise he is. oh please, please don't act like this while you don't have the ability to. lately, he become more and more disgusting. he started to go and flirt with us, touch my roommate, hugs and kisses who already got a boyfriend. not even my roommate only, he did the same thing to other girls too! sooner or later, we start to ignore him. like hang out without him, didn't answer his calls or reply his texts. he himself should know what happened right? but yeah, he "buat bodoh" act innocent and come to ask us what actually happened between both of us. still, we ignore him.

here come one day, he came to our hostel during middle of the night just to find my roommate. my roommate who's soft-hearted and don't know how to deal with him. i wanted to ignore them but hey, it's almost 2am in the morning. he don't need to sleep i need! get my nerve on, i go down and scolded him. i blah-ed out whatever is in my mind until he cried and run away. the next day, i complain him to the college's management.

okay, i thought that we have settled it. but yeah, he still text and keep on calling non-stop to ask for forgiveness.

GRRRRRR !!! I don't know what to do already. malas layan ~ zzz !

FHL FHL FHL ==

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2010-10-21T20:48:00.004+08:00

and i will be strong even if it all goes wrong ..

after all this while, i realized that mom is the best person ever in my life to rely on. no matter how bad i treat her, how loud i shout at her and not listening to what she said.. she will still be there when i need someone to rely on. i feel blessed to have such a mom like her! love her more than anyone else! and not to forget, my late dad of course! :)

well, i've finished two novels and a drama within this few days! feels great about it. i just simply love reading and watching. teehee!

highly recommended! #Can'tBuyMeLove.

Going to watch #EveryMoveYouMake next!

;; 2 weeks! keep it up @MayJong! i know i can i know i can! :D :D :D

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2010-10-19T22:49:00.006+08:00

Back to blog ;)

Freedom. yes, freedom is what i want now. I want to be coach potato, watch movie like there's no tomorrow! I want to eat, eat like a pig! I want to have fun, like everyday is my holidays!

cos i just feel

...

....

.....

LAY-ZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!

Back to my old life is what i want now. Eat, sleep & movie movie. woohoo~ :D :D

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2010-09-29T22:06:00.007+08:00

Hi people! Just realized, i didn't post any single word here for almost one month. opps! teehee :)

well, where and when should i start now? too much to update i guess. I'll just sum up all the things that happened to me in one sentence - Things are getting better and better now! love it! booyeahh~ ^^

Tattooed my leg three weeks back! My baby scorpion ♥

woohoo! got me like ooh-finally! was pretty nervous at first, cos i thought that i can't bear with the pain. but i ended up enjoying the pain tho. hehehe! seriously, i never thought that i will choose this scorpion. I plan to tattoo roses at first but i found it too common cos a lot of girl got it on their leg too, then i turn to those star and love with abstractions. but, i found it too childish cos people will get old one day. *choosy eh me* so yeah, at last i choose this scorpion! love it with no regret! :)

choo, me, cavan, lelia & huey @ empire

Hair extension!

Miss my front hair! Felt regret to go and cut it back to fringe. ISH! :(

Last but not least, song! I just love to share the song that i like with others.

Sweety - Love Never End

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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2010-09-01T23:58:00.006+08:00

mature enough? :p

It's 12:09am now. I suppose to be sleeping, but then i just can't. Lots and lots of thing bumped into my mind once i close my eyes. stress, yeah stress! no one will ever understand how i feel.. never! I feel like quiting everything that I'm doing now and leave to somewhere else. I really dislike my life here especially my principal, that old witch! only know how to scold people, does she know how much effort we put in work? alright, we work overtime, she never appreciate. BUT, if we late to work for even few minutes only, she starts to f*ck here and there already. what kind of boss is this? my first job and yet, I'm really disappointed in it. SIGH!

Talk about class. I'm failing my ITC for sure. It's easy, really. Cos the questions are exactly same as the tutorial that my lecturer gave us. the problem is, i didn't study! I went to club instead. Seriously, I've no heart to study all this business shit already ><

Was talking about love life with the housemates in our room just now. there are four of us.. and yeah, only evelyn the one who is in a long lasting relationship, while the three of us were heart broken still! SADLIFE :( i miss him.. really! but what can i do? i forgive him, but what's the different? nothing change.. nothing. I was waiting for him.. even if just a message from him, i will be happy. I tell myself "forget the past, forget the past" but yeah, i just can't do it.. now then i know, we fall in love easily.. but then it's hard for us to get out from it! :(

this song.. yes, it's our song =') i know, he won't even bother to listen to it again. but yeah, i will still miss him no matter what i do or where i am. 每天想着你已变成习惯, so yeah.

and i wonder if i ever cross your mind. for me, it happens all the time ;;

6days more. hurray ~ :D

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2010-08-21T22:46:00.005+08:00

Tired . YES , I'm physically and mentally exhausted !!

Work OT at the office until 8:30pm , just to rush the timetable and attendance for the college .

I'm sick , tired , hungry & emotional now . Thinking how worst would this go ?

SIGH .

Something good , Mdm Tan called and told me that my room was ready , she bought me a new aircon , new bed , new table , chair , cupboard and so on . Actually im going to take a look just now , but yeah , because of this bullshit , i need to work OT ! damn . so yeah , i will just go and have a look by tomorrow or monday most probably . can't wait to move out of this hostel !!

Hopefully this two weeks will pass REALLY fast, so that i could go home T-T

I'm tired , tired of being alone here .

Feel like giving up all the things that i was doing now and go home . but can i ?

i don't think so .

Conclusion :

The worst Saturday night ever ! I should be enjoying my weekend . BUT , oh well !

是你说的你很爱我为什么要把心摔破 ?

19 days ;;

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2010-08-20T21:49:00.005+08:00

Change. Yes, change.

sometimes, we need to change something in order to become better!

i went to interview for another job this morning! thanks Wilson for sending me to interview and also, send me back to the office after that. he was working today actually, that's why i feel bad to let him wait for me for almost one hour in the car. wooo~ anyway, really thanks him a lot! ^^

talk about the interview, i was lucky to interview by chinese once again! this time, it was a father and the son of the company i guess? they both were very friendly. so as the salary they offered. it's higher than my current job(of course) BUT, still not the amount i want! still deciding tho~ if go, i don't know how to tell the principal that i wanna resign. if stay, i will die of having too much stress in work and so on. hmm hmmm hmmmm hmmmmm !!! i think i will just wait for their call first, then i decide again! =S

sigh. dread of growing up! cos i know that there're a lot of things for us to decide as each stage of our life goes! seriously, i want to go back to my secondary school's life. where there're completely nothing for us to worry about. All we need to decide is, when and where to hang out, what to wear, when to study and so on. unlike now! getting tougher and tougher :( urghhh!

This is what my principal wrote on our staff's log book :

" all administrative staff. please be reminded your working time start from 8am. please start work when you clock in & not talking & gossip around! TQ! "

HAHAHAHA! don't you think that it's funny? first time in my life i read this kind of things. she treat us like her students i guess? BOOO! anyway, she won't be in the office tomorrow. so yeah! it's our day tomorrow! :P Saturday saturday! enjoy your weekend everyoneeeeeeeee! :))

20 days ;;

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2010-08-18T00:06:00.002+08:00

Currently addicted to 丁噹's songs! All her songs were awesome!

1) 丁噹 - 你為什麼說謊

2) 丁噹 - 猜不透

3) 丁噹 - 我愛他

4) 丁噹 - 我是一隻小小鳥

and also, 方大同 - Nothing's gonna change my love for you.

I realized, the old songs would be great if it's re-sing by the new singer.

if i had to live my life without you near me

the days would all be empty

the nights would seem so long

with you i see forever oh so clearly

i tried to be in love before

but it never felt this strong

our dreams are young and we both know

they'll take us where we want to go

hold me now touch me now

i don't want to live without you

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you ought to know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i'll never ask for more than your love

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you ought to know by know how much i love you

the world may change my whole life too

but nothing's gonna change my love for you

if the road ahead is not so easy

our love will lead the way for us

just like the guiding star

i'll be there for you if you should need me

you don't need to change a thing

i love you just the way you are

so come with me and share the view

i'll help you see forever too

hold me now touch me now

i don't want to live without you

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you ought to know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i'll never ask for more than your love

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you ought to know by know how much i love you

the world may change my whole life too

but nothing's gonna change my love for you

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you ought to know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i'll never ask for more than your love

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you ought to know by know how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i'll never ask for more than your love

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you ought to know by know how much i love you

the world may change my whole life too

but nothing's gonna change my love for you

nothing's gonna change my love for you

you ought to know by now how much i love you

one thing you can be sure of

i'll never ask for more than your love

don't you think this song is sweet? hee ♥

i am posting up all this song cos i get fed up in complaining about my life. there's nothing much happened too! oh yeah, to all my friend, don't call or message to my brunei's line. my mum is currently using it to keep it from expired. heheh. anything just find me on facebook, although i'm not really active in it but still, i will reply. HAHA! XD 


It's okay if you're late, it's okay you're a little late, just promise me that you'll come back. I love you even though i hate you.

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2010-08-15T12:04:00.004+08:00

Woke up REAL early in this Sunday morning! cos of the new housemate who move in today. Gaah ==" she where got noisy oh? "bang" here "bang" there early in the morning! zzz. when i woke up, i messaged Jvin immediately complaining about them. who know Jvin told me that actually he's up for a long time already just that he lazy go out and see what's happening! LOL. i think that they're moving those gold in, that's why it will be that noisy. XD

Okay, talk about yesterday. Work, yeah work first! the principal, she's being too unduly yesterday! no, should say as always! she made my colleague cry by shouting at her in front of a bunch of people at the office. and my colleague, she's just too soft hearted.. cos whenever this happened to her, she will just hide herself in the toilet and cry. i kind of sympathy her! :( me too, shouted by the principal like everyday.. BUT, i fight back! i don't care who she is, as long as the things that she scold are not right, i will fight back. i won't keep it in my heart -- that's me. if she keep on scolding me, I'll show her my "behsong" face and don't talk to her until i off from work. who cares? this sti-uu-pidd old women! ==" i need to seek for another job, yes i really need! i can't bear with this already. sigh. FML to the max~ :(

At night, i went to Karaoke with the classmate @ Season. They all complain that i sang a lot of emo songs. What to dooooooooooooooooooo? I'm emo what. HAHAH! we sing until 2am then off to A1 eat chicken chop! can't get to go balcony thou :(

Boo! Before going out! :))

Kim and me. ignore my fats* XD

Enjoy your weekend everyoneeeee!

Imma off to disturb my housmate and continue my HK series now.

25days ;;

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2010-08-13T17:58:00.003+08:00

Went to watch 'Salt' with friends after our class on Wednesday night. It was awesome! Angelina Jolie is really gorgeous! Luckily the movie still airing at cinema uh! I didn't get to watch it last week, because of dai sheng and ming wie they all want to play archery and bowling instead ==

Recommended (Y)

And yesterday, happy hours at Infinity again.. with sally, dom, karen, vian, bibie and eddie. my uncle joined us too! yeah, we're happy family! :D

this song.... yeah, crying while singing this song yesterday :(

i miss you. yes, i really do miss you a lot! but what can i do? sigh.

i know, there's no turning back for us anymore. miracle doesn't exists.

but still, i'm stuck at the past. some one.. please help me! sniffs T.T

27 days ;;

137th Entries.

2010-08-10T19:00:00.004+08:00

Hello people! :)

Supposed to update few days ago.. but then i was too busy to do so.

Well well well. things are just OK recently. The housemate all moved out from the hostel already, except for me and Jvin only. It's so scary can? cos it's really quite here now. :S

I got back all my papers, and CONGRATS to me! I passed all of them. Scored a B in HR T& D, credits in P.O.M, ITB and HRM and an E in TPM. thanks God! i no need to resit for any of them. heheh.

Let's see what have i done in the past few days.. mmmm.. oh yeah, went to play archery and bowling with the classmates on Thursday! They all teased me on my bowling skills T.T first time ok first timeeeee! I scored 17 points(for the beginner,counted as "not bad" already ho?) HAHAH! and the archery lead me to muscle pain for few days! this is because i seldom exercise, that's why i will feel pain. Then Jie they all came and find me on Sunday, we went to Infinity again since we still got alcohol left there last week. As usual, sing K and drinking session with them. And come to Monday, back to normal again.. which mean work and class. The class is getting boring day by day cos of the lecturer. He telling his cold joke and laugh himself.. we called this "ss" -- syiok sendiri! LOL! luckily the class is at computer lab, so that we can online to kill our boredom. If not, I'm sure that everyone will fall asleep in the class.

Call us m2m! HAHAH! XD

They say I'm more like throwing watermelon! -__-

Josephine sent me my stock yesterday. I love all the things that i ordered. especially the bag! woohoo~ going to save money now.. for next year's trip with the classmate! :)

Alright, blahs~ that's it. will update asap!

136th Entries.

2010-08-04T23:19:00.006+08:00

What's on my mind? one word, just one word... STRESS! thought things would get better this year but no, they don't. thing goes wrong as always in my life. sigh. I'm stressing too much for little things that happened day by day .... i wonder when will it end?

Lots of past memories popped up to my mind while I'm invigilating the exam this few days.. think back, i use to have a happy life in the past. it's me, myself who choose to end it. i shouldn't made such a stupid decision in the beginning.. if not, things will really be A LOT different now.

and yes, it's too late to regret now.. it's almost 4years, 4years! silly right? people has already moved on while I'm still here, stuck at the past.

If god handed me a wish, i wish that i could reborn again. I'm really TIRED of myself now.

I'm really depressed today, even my colleague asked if there's something happened to me. cos i always be the noisiest in the office, but i'm just completely silent today.

Yes, there are really a lot of thing that i'm not happy with. just that i don't know who should i turn to.. i need a listener, yes i need! but too bad, my bestie was not here with me.. if not i could just throw out everything that i kept in my heart to her.. she will always be the first one to swallow all the things that I've told her and comfort me :(

I tried hard to stay optimistic already.. hopefully it works?

oh well, i found this on facebook.

"On this day, God wants you to know ... that it's time for you to let go. Yes, of course, you want to control so everything happens in just the way you want it. But in the end of the day, we control nothing. it's all in God's hands - has always been, and always will be. So, do what you can, and then let go. let God handle the rest."

It sounds so right. don't you think so?

♥

135th Entries.

2010-08-02T21:50:00.003+08:00

Mum called and asked me to cut my front hair, cos my uncle told her that my front hair are getting longer that cover one of my eye. don't you think it's random? LOL.

Good good weekend with the love(s) one! Had a lot of fun as well! :))

Jie come and pick me up with vian and may after i off from work. We went to Parkson to shop for dress, shoes and etc. After that we had our dinner at 晶屋. spent quite a long time there just to eat their chop! *fat die* Back to Marriott around 10pm.. yeah, we're late cos my bro, felix & karen already done preparing themselve! First stop, balcony! at first, i was really happy when i get there.. cos i bumped into S ^^ but my friend T, pissed me off like seriously! May told me that i keep on swearing bad words to her but i really can't recall. hahah! i only remember that i really get mad with T cos of her #@$% attitude! and she called me for more than 10 times the next morning, I've no idea what she want but I'm not answering her call. *PUI* unless you apologize to me first! hmmpp! I'm not petty, just that i get enough of her already.. it's not the first time! she crossed my line! GRR. okay okay, forget about it. We went to infinity after balcony.. sing like there's no tomorrow! I only sang one song there(while i am still awake) and i've lost after that! they told me that i keep on in and out to the toilet and vomit. HAHAH! =/ feel bad for them, cos they need to take care of me. and and.. i don't know we stay there until what time cos the next day when i wake up i found myself at the hotel room already ;)) we went to swim when all of us are up! there's bouncer above the pool, i wanted to play loh.. but they say it's only for kids who are below 12. sad! :( Checked out from Marriott around 1pm+ and went to eat our brunch at suncity.. after that parkson AGAIN! got a bit fed up with there already.. i kinda miss Seria's plaza now. LOL! stayed there until 6pm and we off to infinity for karaoke again! I felt kinda embarrassed to step in cos i keep on going in and out from the toilet on Saturday night, and i think the waitress and waiter recognize me still! :$ blah blah blah~ i lazy to type again! XD

I don't know who took this, but it's inside my camera album. HAHAH!

Marriott!!

I know i know, the front hair are too long already right? but I'm not going to cut it! hohoho! :P

and yes, i am quite kinda super freaking happy today! lolol~ for the reason, heheh. like what others like to say *adalerr* ^^

you got me flying solo ;;

134th Entries.

2010-07-29T20:03:00.001+08:00

The college is having exam for this two weeks! and i was asked to invigilate again. to be honest, invigilating is really a boring tasks ever! the fun part is, to catch students who cheat. wooo! think back, i was the one who being caught when i cheat on my exam and now, it's my turn to catch people! NYEH! XD not bad, i caught one student successfully on the first day of exam! *claps* i think he must be cursing me now from catching him. but oh welll~ that's my job! heheh.

some of the students come and told me, "miss, i'm dead this time.. i don't know how to answer!" and i was like "so?" HAHAH! I'm not bad, i know how they feel. but what's the point of being panic since they have already sit for the exam right? oh yeah, talk about exam. I'm currently having holidays now(for class only lah, not work T.T) cos I've passed my presentation. as what my lecturer told us, for those who passed the presentation, there's a no need to sit for the exam, for those who failed then need. so yeah :))

It's friday today, weekend is coming in few hours time! hurray~

It's time for clubbing, karaoke-ing and shopping with the love(s) one!

Tomorrow gonnoa be a good good night yeah? heheh. xo~

133rd Entries.

2010-07-28T20:40:00.003+08:00

Okay, this blog is going to be public again! Welcome back my readers :)

It's been 10days.. yes, exactly 10days that i abandoned this blog.

miss my entries? heheheh.

Well, there's nothing much happened to me too! as i said, my life is boring... to the max! Mostly occupied by work and class only. sad life~

Oh yeah, I'm back with a song to intro you guys!

习惯一个人看戏
习惯一个人旅行
习惯一个人静静想你
想你现在在哪里
想你会为谁担心
想你是否已忘记
忘记那段爱情
忘记那颗泪滴
忘记了所有不该忘的回忆 ;;

will update soon! xo

132nd Entries.

2010-07-18T02:10:00.004+08:00

... Maybe we weren't mean to be together.

Yes, i tried really hard to make this feeling right again. I gave out quite much of tolerance, but you doesn't seem to appreciate it. Why can't we just talk calmly like what others did? Why we need to end up with arguments always? I really don't know how to maintain our relation anymore. I am really tired. No, should say we both are tired for this already. It's time to move on. Although i know that i might still not be able to let go yet.. but yeah, time will heal everything.

" If we're destined to be together, then even if our love failed now, we will still have another chance.. "

Just go with the flow. Everything will be alright.

Alright, I am going to private this blog soon... just for the time being, no worries.. it won't be forever.. probably around few months? let's see.

To all my readers, we'll keep in touch on Twitter yeah? Follow me @MaeSC09.

Sorry for the impulsive thought, people tends to be negative/down during the middle of the night. Sigh.

I think i might just go and watch my Crayon Shin Chan to release my sadness. I don't want to wet my face with the tears again!

Bye guys~

131st Entries.

2010-07-13T19:29:00.010+08:00

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

Once again, i began to miss him.

I know, I shouldn't feel that way.. but it's just too irresistible. sigh.

Ps: I really need you now :'(

130th Entries.

2010-07-11T15:55:00.003+08:00

At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make. So make the most of now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.

I can't believe that i actually slept for almost 16 hours since yesterday until 2pm just now.

and now, I'm widely awake! heheh. didn't sleep for that much ever since i came here to work and study.. this is the first time. wuu :) what to do? played till morning on Friday night. Met my best friend and had a lot of fun with her and others too! I skipped work just because of them, see how good i am! *pukes*

My favorite place to go on now :

I realized, yesterday i actually wrote something in this blog before i went to sleep. LUCKILY i didn't publish it! It's still safely saved in the drafts. phewww! I think I'm over emotional yesterday.. so yeah =/

Ps: I know it's not good looking at all, and i don't even know that we took this photo. but yeah, i like it. hehe.

My two favorite girls in life.

Here Monday come again. We are going to submit our final proposal to the lecturer tomorrow! Time to rush my work. Enough of fun time already. heheh ... ♥

129th Entries.

2010-07-06T19:33:00.003+08:00

Hello readers :)

I felt really happy this few days. Don't ask me why, coz i also don't know what's the main reason.

Did i changed? yes? no? probably i guess.

Now i know, people changed after they got stimulated by certain incident which hurt them deeply! But remember, we always change for the better.

This morning, my auntie came to the college and look for me. guess what? she told me that i look a lot better than last month. Ps, better as in getting fat! OhMyGoddddd! even my colleague also told me that I'm getting fatter. FML! :( Tell me why is it so hard for me to diet! GRRR. but it's okay lah, 吃的是福! Cantonese(s) say ' sek dak si fuk! ' something like that. hehehe. you guys can call me fei po (fat one), i won't mind. I will love it instead! :P coz i don't dare to skip meal anymore, i scared that i might feel dizzy like last time again. and i need to go hospital and take a lot of medicine to swallow. *Pukess* I won't let it happen again, thats why i will control now. I've learned my lesson already! But ofcourse, i won't eat too much lah. I mean like won't over the limit. =)

Anyway, I've ordered 2 dresses and a bag from TheGreatestJFashion CLICK if you're interested in those nice dress/shirt/bags/shoes and etc. It's nice and worthy yo! I just received my stock today, thanks J to send them to my hostel on purpose just now :) I love them. It's really nice, especially the bag! Friends told me not to buy things from internet coz the stock will be a lot different from those pictures shown in the website, but i don't think so. Seriously, this is the first time that i bought things from internet - online shopping. I think i will be doing it often now, since it's nicer and cheaper than those which sell at shops! PLUS, I'm a lazy-busy person so i guess it's comfortable for me to online shopppp! ;)

Oh yeah, i plan to get a tattoo either on my hand or leg! Actually i already chose what to tattoo when i accompany my sis that day. Just that i don't know WHERE to. hmm hmmm hmmmm~ we only can live once, so why don't we try everything we want? oh baby, no more hesitation on life! ^^

I'm more active in Tweeter nowadays than facebook and blog. so yeah, do follow me @ http://twitter.com/MaeSC09 IF you got a tweeter account!

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but we can start today and make a brand new ending. ( Copied from Felixohlalalala's blog ) HAHA!

128th Entries.

2010-07-02T22:22:00.007+08:00

Time wait for no man. No forwards, pause or backwards in it. What has happened, let it be. Coz there is no undo button in our life, it only exists in our dream not in reality. The most important things in life is - to be happy.

June ended in just a blink of eye! how fast was that? In another blink of eye, we would be celebrating Christmas probably. HAHAHA! and so far, i don't think that i have done any productive things yet. what to do? all my time have been occupied by work and studies. sadlife :( Checked calendar this morning, It would be a busy month ahead. Which means, there will be no holidays for me within this two months except for Sunday only. Pftt! I don't care ah, I'm going to take leave on September no matter what :) homesick okay? homesickkk! Some more, my home is just NEAR to here only and i can't even go back often?! Friends back for semester break one after one, really hope that i could meet them. It's been half year since we last met. sigh. miss them terribly!

Oh yeah, i just finished watching this HK Series -- 谈情说案

recommended ;)

And I'm now watching 蒲松龄

马浚伟 ♥ my fav actor!

Gonna back to drama-worm mode for this few weeks! hehehe.

127th Entries.

2010-06-30T22:49:00.003+08:00

cactus and kid.

you're the cactus who keeps on hurting our love while i'm the kid who hangs on to your love so much that i can't see myself is hurting.

yes, i used to be the kid who pay out love constantly. but i guess it's not worthy anymore?

i can sum up everything i've learn from all these, in just three words -- life goes on

coz i know in the future, i will look back on these and call them the best days of my life.

我还有一辈子可以用来努力，我一定会忘记你 :)

126th Entries.

2010-06-28T21:27:00.004+08:00

Finally, ITB Finals was over! and the papers were easier than what I've predicted. I think i could at least get a pass with my last-minutes revision? hehehe. actually i planned to fail it already, cause i thought that i will not be able to memorize all of 'em but yeah, i was asked to go roadshow for the college this morning -- which means i can grab my book along and study there while my colleague can help at distribute the fliers. Thanks God! ;)

Spent my weekend with my beloved(s). It's awesome~

drink drank drunk. it's the best way to release stress! How good if everyday was Saturday - weekend. I think most of us do hope that right? but too bad, whenever there's Sunday, Monday will come the next day.

Bought Famous amos's cookies! yumms. I love their chocolate chips with no nuts! I bought it yesterday when we went shopping & this morning again while we had our lunch at Mega mall. call me cookies freak! nyahaha :P

Wanna see the mechanic wannabes?

Nah, kidding. We found out that the car's tyre was out of air when we're about to go. Luckily they know how to change it. If not, they need to overnight at Miri here for another night again. hahaha.

Boom! whatcha say ~

Me and my beloved lou jie! ♥

125th Entries.

2010-06-23T23:16:00.006+08:00

English Version of Wedding Dress. OMG, it's so nice can? *love*

Lyrics :

Never should've let you go

Never found myself at home

Ever since that day that you walked

Right out the door

You were like my beating heart

That I, I can't control

Even though weve grown apart

My brain cant seem to let you go

Thinking back to the old times

When you kept me up late at night

We use to mess around

Laugh and play, fuss and fight

I guess its too late, Im dancing this dance alone

This chapters done, the story goes on

Baby

Can't believe that you are not with me

'Cause you should be my lady

All I want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him

Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you

Remember, I will always be here for you

Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress

Oh see you in that wedding dress

See you in that wedding dress

Oh see you in that wedding dress

Snappin out this misery

Depression this aint me

But I always turn around

180 degrees

You got control of me

And I, I cant explain

Somebody call 911 Emergency

Before I go insane

Since youve moved on

You took a piece of me give it back

So much pain in my chest

Blacking out, heart attack

And I see you with your man and it's hard to understand

If we belong, if I did you wrong, where we even began

We would always fuss and fight and it seems nothing was right

But I loved you girl and you were my world but you'd never trust this guy

'Cause the things I do when I'm on the stage, they say I'm a superstar

You couldn't understand all the female fans and then we grew apart

And I just don't get when you're acting like some other person

But I try my best to hold on at the times when it ain't working

And everytime that you say it's over it breaks my heart and I don't know why

'Cause you've done it a lot of times in the past but I get back up and try

You said we could work it out, how could you hurt me now

And you moved on to the next, I'm left with an imperfect smile.

My current message tone. NYEH. :P

124th Entries.

2010-06-23T21:52:00.003+08:00

Things are being so fxckup recently! :(

Life is really difficult! no, should say it will never be easy for me.

There are so much unhappy things await me to face them.

FML FML FML.

Exam is coming in four days time & Presentation in another one week time.

Just the thought of it already made me no appetite to eat for the whole day.

Some more, i'm really not happy with my current job.

OMG. what happened to me? grr.

Ignore me, I'm just being a bit emo today, due to my stress-ness from work & class.

I will be alright tomorrow.

I think i should go on a vacation or something to relax myself. (actually i planned it already) hehehe.

hopefully i can make it, coz i scared that i might not be able to take leaves for that :(

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars?

i can really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now~

123th Entries.

2010-06-20T22:00:00.003+08:00

Woke up early this morning around 9+ and went to SIB church for father's day celebration.

The kids were invited to the front and give a few minutes speech for their father, telling them how much they love them. How i wish that i got the chance to tell my father that how much i love him too! but too bad, i didn't manage to tell him while he's still here. so, appreciate the people around you. Remember, do not hurt your loves one! Don't wait until it's too late then you realize how important they are.

After church, i went home. And when i log in to my FB, i saw something that cheer me up :) thanks him for wasting his time and write down all this story for me to read. actually i supposed to read it yesterday, but I'm too 'pig' that i choose to sleep early. hehehe. i want more and more story next time ah ( if you're reading this ) *wink wink*

So yeah, actually i just back from Mr Aries's wedding dinner not long. His wife was like oh-so-pretty! I know, Bride is always the prettiest one. Jemalie send me to Imperial just now by his motorbike. Can say that it's the FIRST time in my life that i ride on a motorbike! Omg, so scary can? maybe it's my first time la. *embarrassed* LOL!

and I'm super-duperly full now! ate too much~ i think I'm going to skip my breakfast & lunch tomorrow.. dinner if possible too.

Congratulations! ^^

Others will be uploaded @ FB. coz I'm lazy to type already. sorry guys! x

122th Entries.

2010-06-19T22:14:00.006+08:00

It's mama birthday today, happy birthday to my beloved mama!

She's the most important person in my life. without her, there wouldn't be what am i today.

My mama is so caring, although i felt annoy by her phone calls everyday.. but at the same time, i feel loved by her too. She's strong, she work really hard to take care of my brother and me after my father left us. and she never fail to give us what we want. I won't disappoint her as well, i promised to study hard and success in the future in order to take good care of her. Love my mama to death ♥♥♥

and also, Happy father's day to my baba too.

Thanks for blessing us in heaven. i know it's him who led me to the path where i was in today. yes, i do admit it's really tough.. sometimes i feel like giving up too. coz this is not the life i want. but yeah, i will carry on with this.. just go with the flow, everything will be alright in the end.. if it's not right, it's still not the end yet :)

ahh.. how i wish that the time could just turn back. back to year 2006, which was four years back when i was still 13. can say that it's the happiest time that I've been through among all this 17 years of my life. coz it leave me a very good memories.. until now, there are still no one/thing can replace it. thinking back, it will always bring a smile to my face no matter what. ^^

周杰伦 - 白色风车

my all time favorite song.

it's also the song which cheer me up with good memories by the lyrics. love it.

121th Entries.

2010-06-18T18:05:00.001+08:00

I tried really hard to tell myself that it's not true.. it's just a lie, a lie. but yet, i just can't do it.. coz it hurts too much to know all this. now i know why you want it that way.. i finally understand after questioning myself for whole year long. sigh. all disappointments, anger, hates, jealousy, sad that i have been through. does it worth? I've no idea to answer myself anymore.. I'm really tired. why i need to face through all this things? FML.

Okay, don't ask me what happened. I'm not going to tell..

so yeah, there's a new colleague who came to our office this morning. it's like finally! our office are actually recruiting staffs for a long time already.. coz there are too much work and too little time & staff. so, a new cleaner and staff for this month! we both are betting, for how long that two of the new staffs will stay. some say 1month, some say 3weeks.. I'm the best one, i bet it 3months. hehehe. coz after the one-day-resigned staff's incident and also our previous cleaner who left without telling nor informing, we got a dread feeling for it already. If the cleaner suddenly run away, we need to do cleaning again, which i hate the most! grr. luckily office is hiring two cleaner now. if this one left, we still got backup ^^

I found an old song in office's computer which was downloaded by Jason before he left. quite nice tho.

My mood kinda down this few days, due to some reasons. sigh. i hope that you will feel regret for what you did.... sobs*

120th Entries.

2010-06-16T18:43:00.003+08:00

I'm real lazy to think about the tittle of every post that i published so i've ended up with this, 120th Entries, which means 120 posts! i will be using this tittle for the rest of my blog post now :) shame on me, i've been blogging for almost 3 years.. but still i only manage to blog for 100+ posts only. wuuu.

today is dumpling festival! but i don't feel anything coz im away from home. but seriously, i do miss home food very much! I'm sure that my mum and auntie will cook a lot of delicious food during festival time. i should be enjoying those delicious food now BUT, why am i here eating apple? FML.

oh yeah, new product from Big Apple Donut : Doshi - donut + sushi.

try you reverse it, sushi + donut - sunut : sunat. HAHAHA!

I'm going to try it tomorrow! actually it's just a normal donut, just that it shaped like sushi and the toppings too. :))

anyway, happy dumpling festival to y'all!

Don't cry over spilled milk.

2010-06-06T17:31:00.003+08:00

what happened has happened and that can't be fixed. remember, happiness is the most important things in life :)

so yeah, been busy hanging out with cousins and friends for the whole week in Brunei here.

i feel so comfortable whenever I'm home. but too bad, i need to go back tomorrow morning already.

sighed. work work work & class class class! one word - stress.

things that i do within this one whole week :

went up to Bandar for movie and shopping ( didn't got the chance to go JP! sad T.T )
sang alot of songs @ Arcade ( listened to Ah wen sing Andy's song for the first time. hahah )
Sushi @ Kaizen ( thanks honey for treating us ^^ )
Swimming @ BSRC
rummy rummy
eat REAL lot ~ ( fat diee )

i met few of my old classmates too! glad to see them. one of them told me that i look thinner than before. woots! happy to the max~ :D i think we really need a reunion or gathering next time. miss them to death! :(

there're still a lot more to mention but I'm just too lazy to type it down. HEHEH.

oh yes, there is no photo for this post. sorry guys! ><

coz i think my blog look more tidy without pictures. so yeah :)

that's it for today. kthxbai!

A productive day, no!

2010-05-26T23:00:00.008+08:00

This morning, we went to distribute fliers again. due to Saturday raining, so we postpone it to today. before we go to distribute, we went for breakfast first. Me, Ling, Victor & Bobbie. i can't stop laughing whenever im with them, they're really funny. and also, i cannot stand for victor loh! his breakfast for today : chicken rice, kolo mee, half boiled eggs & egg tarts. tsk tsk! even the waitress also keep on staring at him and frowns. okay, after we finished our breakfast and return to our car..

we found this over parking coupon! God~ unlucky qin! -___-

the weather outside real torridity! and we're torturing ourself to distribute fliers under the hot sun. grr. anyway, we end up with something something* hehehe. can't mention it in here as my blog is too public, everyone can read it! skip skip skip.

GOOD NEWS for me! im going back to Brunei tomorrow~ ^^ finally, i got time to rest. no need to wake up early in the morning and rush to work. im so gonna enjoy it ttm! :)

my favorite song at the moment =')

I've try so hard to forget about you.

but there are always something which will bring you back to my mind.

time passed. but yet, the memories are still vividly remain here with me..

I'm sorry, i love you.

Favorite Quotes.

2010-05-23T14:26:00.004+08:00

" Life is too short to woke up with regrets.

Love the people who treat you right & forget the one who don't!

Believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance - take it.

If it changed your life - let it.

Nobody say that life would be easy.

They just promised it would be worth it. "

2010-05-22T19:33:00.004+08:00

hello readers.

yes, I'm real busy for the last whole week. sad.

anyway, I'm back for an update to keep this blog alive :)

we celebrated lecturer's day yesterday and i received a cupcake from those students who are older than me. shy. maybe some of them still misunderstand that I'm their new lecturer. oh well~ hmmm. our presentation goes well yesterday. except for some minor interruptions by the projector in between. I'm too nervous that i actually forget how to slideshow the power point by using my lecturer's laptop. cause it's different from my own. embarrassed die. but overall, lecturer still praised us for the good work. pheww.

It's 22th already. time pass really fast, May is going to end soon. without realizing, I've moved here for almost half year. can't believe that I'm still surviving with this stressful life that I'm having now.*congrats to myself* I will bear with it until the day i graduate hopefully. no, should say i must!

supposed that we're going to distribute fliers this afternoon, but it rain heavily once we left the college.. so yeah, no need to distribute ;) thus we went to eat lunch instead. Bobbie they all planned to eat something "excited" in this cold weather. so we went to eat lalapan (the most spicy food ever). Luckily I'm already full by that time, cause i can't eat spicy food! and I'm not that 'hao lian' to act like i can eat! hahaha. me and Ling just sit there and watch them eat only. can see that it's so spicy although they didn't say it out, cause they are all sweating like hell. especially Victor, the most 'hao lian' one. can't eat then admit, why need to torture himself? hahaha.

My cupcakes! yummmmm ;)

"hoii. sangat pedas ahh!" HAHAHAHA!

to be continue . . . :) xx

The truth.

2010-05-10T21:31:00.004+08:00

this song keeps on playing in my playlist for the whole day.

is this what you wish to tell me ... ? i wonder

Baby I know youre hurting, for what I did to you,

I cant take it back though, but imma let you know how it is .

First Verse:

I wish I wouldve told you earlier what happened,

I couldnt swallow my pride,

& its crazy as you heard it from somebody else,

And now youre asking me why ..

Chorus:

Dont know why I did that to you,

I swear I thought you made me complete.

Sorry I made you look like a fool, But I needed someone here with me ..

why werent you there when i needed you by my side ? why werent you there when you made everything so right .. ?

why werent you there ? cause it hurts like hell to know that were through . But finally im telling the truth ..

Second Verse:

I wish this situation wasnt so complicated, but you deserve to know .

one thing lead to another .. started thinking about us, then i couldnt do it no more ..

Chorus:

Dont know why I did that to you,

I swear I thought you made me complete .

Sorry i made you look like a fool, but i needed someone here with me ..

why werent you there when i needed you by my side ? why werent you there when you made everything so right .. ?

why werent you there ? cause it hurts like hell to know that were through . But finally Im telling the truth ..

Hook:

This is so so sad, and i cant take it back,

And to see you cry, makes me feel so bad.

Wish that I could take this big mistake,

Make it go away, but its too late now ...

why werent you there when i needed you by my side ? why werent you there when you made everything so right .. ?

why werent you there ? cause it hurts like hell to know that were through . But finally Im telling the truth ..

why werent you there when i needed you by my side ? why werent you there when you made everything so right .. ?

why werent you there ? cause it hurts like hell to know that were through . But finally Im telling the truth ..

But finally Im telling the truth ..

I'm mad :(

2010-05-06T19:29:00.004+08:00

the one you adore, ignore you. the one you ignore, annoy you.

SIGHED. I REALLY HAD ENOUGH OF YOU!

don't you know that i'm not interested in you? I've been perfunctory you, don't you feel it? It's really obvious okay. please don't try to act stupid in front of me. it will only make me hate you more and more! i know you're reading it, coz you've been stalking my Fb and twitter as well! don't think that i don't know about it, I'm not dumb! Pfft. you dirtied my name in the whole college. satisfied? happy? now i know the main reason that you transfered from full time diploma to EMP. coz you been dislike by all the students. and you snatched people's girlfriend UNSUCCESSFULLY too! shame on you. to tell the truth, every single letter or word from you can spoiled my mood badly for the whole day. if you still have conscience, please stop texting or calling me! but if you wish to be removed from my friend lists, then go on. it doesn't matter to have you as a friend or not. i never thought that you would be that excruciating. i'm just being friendly and talk to you.. you really did think too much! @&$%!#&%$ =="

okay, enough of blah-ing. the only way to let me express my feeling yo. feel much more better now ;)

Tiada lagi.

2010-04-30T11:23:00.002+08:00

Mayang Sari - Tiada Lagi

Sia-sia sudah kita jalin cinta bila hati s’lalu berbeda

Sampai kapan lagi ‘ku harus menahan rasa kecewa di dalam dada
Seandainya kita masih bersatu, tak mungkin ‘kan menyatu
Walau masih ada sisa cinta, biarkan saja berakhir sampai di sini

Tiada lagi yang kuharapkan, tiada lagi yang kuimpikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu
Tiada lagi kata cintaku, tak ‘kan lagi ‘ku bersamamu
Biar kusimpan semua kenanganku bersamamu

Sampai kapan lagi ‘ku harus menahan rasa kecewa di dalam dada
Seandainya kita masih bersatu, tak mungkin ‘kan menyatu
Walau masih ada sisa cinta, biarkan saja berakhir sampai di sini

Tiada lagi yang kuharapkan, tiada lagi yang kuimpikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu
Tiada lagi kata cintaku, tak ‘kan lagi ‘ku bersamamu
Biar kusimpan semua kenanganku bersamamu

Tiada lagi yang kuharapkan, tiada lagi yang kuimpikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu, oh…
Tiada lagi kata cintaku, tak ‘kan lagi ‘ku bersamamu
Biar kusimpan semua kenanganku bersamamu

Tiada lagi yang kuharapkan, tiada lagi yang kuimpikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu…

Found this songs when i went to sing k with xiao tong the other night. a lady was emo-ing beside our table while singing this song. her voice is really nice! know what? i actually do google-ed and translate this lyrics into english. *embarrassed* coz my malay not really good and im curious about what this lyrics mean. sounds sad ba. and yeah, it's really a sad song! D:

I feel so comfy at home~ don't feel like going back to miri anymore .. but it always reminds me of something unhappy and sad whenever i back. need more time to forget about it. sighed :(

2010-04-24T20:55:00.003+08:00

On the phone with hun for hours just now, and my credits are flowing like water. but ah, who cares? hehehe. we did gossip a lot ~ and i feel happy whenever i talk to her. I think everyone feel the same also? like talk to an old friend once a month or once a week like that. coz we used to meet everyday last time but now we only get to meet once after two or three months. so, time will never be enough for us to talk! unless my phone's credit is unlimited :3

this morning, our boss trained us how to do the counselling. Bobbie, Victor, Pei Ling, Laura, Mag and me. each of us takes turn to brief about the courses that offered by our college and we can ask as many questions as we wanted to. okay, i was being kind and only asked a few questions during Bobbie and Victor's turn but who know when it comes to my turn to brief, both of them asked me a lot of question which are not related to the courses! ahh. then my boss told me that i've no confidence in answering. ishh @ Victor! the most busybody one. hahaha! i will take my revenge soon. watch it ;)

God. just let me meet him in reality once in my life time, and i will die without regret! ^^

窗外阴天了，音乐低声了，我的心开始想你了。。。

Sweet :3

2010-04-20T19:19:00.004+08:00

Found this in Tumblr this afternoon.

9x - 7i > 3 ( 3x-7u )
9x - 7i > 9x - 21 u
-7i > -21u

7i > 21u
i < 3 u
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Sweet

It's a hectic day today! but still, i enjoyed playing Restaurant City & Pet society during office hours. hehehe. i love office's connection so much! coz it's freaking fast unlike my hostel. i think my housemate use it to download porn or something. nyeh! i bought a LV skin for my lappy, and my lappy was branded now with the skin. love it ♥

I pretty fancy this phone, Nokia 5800. what do you think about it? hm. i need an extra phone to keep my Brunei's line active. coz it's dead now and some of them still text there, can't blame coz i didn't inform them that im not in brunei currently.

不要放弃，因为有一天缘分会继续. . . =')

傻瓜，我们都一样。被爱情伤了又伤。

2010-04-18T11:43:00.005+08:00

让你们看看我电脑最近的壁纸:

超喜欢! 呵呵呵 ^^

礼拜天最适合呆在家包连续剧! 忙碌了整个星期，终于能够休息了。我已经追完这部，‘海派甜心’ 。

不错哦~ 我想你们大概也看完了吧?

在想着接下来该看哪一部。。听说 ‘下一站，幸福’ 也是蛮好看的。看什么叻? 阿文介绍的PPFILM真好!什么戏都有，除了 *那个那个* 以外啦! 哈哈哈。。。而且下载得也蛮快，不用等那么久。CLICK一下就能看了。。比起YOUTUBE真是快多咯!

想请假回文莱，但是不能! *伤心死* 因为公司缺少人! 我差不多有两个月没回家了叻。。D: 管他的，我下个月一定要回去! 不给的话是你的事，我不管你~ 天天让你骂让你喊，谁会喜欢? =.= 怪不得3个同事同时一起辞职啦! 我想我也差不多了。呵呵呵 ^^ 我自己有另外一个目标哦~ 但是还不能告诉你们是什么先。:P 再它还没达成之前，我只好先忍耐着这个 ‘好老板’! 回到文莱第一件事就是 ‘吃吃吃’ !! 很想念老家的食物。虽然说不是超好吃的，但是我还是喜欢! 哈哈。。有人答应说如果我回去的话，会天天来找我哦~ 信着他先吧! :))

Never reach a point where you regret something because you thought that it was a mistake. Remember:
" Once upon a time, it made you smile. "
xx

在一起叫梦，分开了叫痛。

2010-04-15T19:53:00.004+08:00

I'm now currently listen back to those old songs, and it remind me of the past. sweet! :3
sometimes, i really hope that the time could just turn back! because i realized that i've done a lot of things which made me regret so so so much! if i made the right choice, i would be a happy and blissful girl now. but sighed, im stupid. deal with it =/

Speaking about work. office is really quiet today, without Leslie and Khamsiah! I been snaking for the whole afternoon facebook-ing and tumblr-ing. cause it's really bored to do those paper works! Principal asked me to catch up quickly and i was like ''huh?'' then she scolded me for giving her this reaction always. ishh! i hate it when she shout at me and my colleague. even my mum also never shout like this to me before! malas! a lot of ''ngiao ji'' people nowadays ~ i wonder why *scratch headd* and about my class, i found this Human Resource Management quite interesting. will be having my next class tomorrow nights. :) ah. lifeless me ~ i wanna go back homeeeee!

Show you guys my Darling ~ :D

Cute qinn! ♥ my type of boy! ps; spectacles is a MUST! hehehe :D

你说过要陪我走到永远;
还是你在敷衍?

Bye.

2010-04-10T21:19:00.003+08:00

Bye in advanced! i think im going to die soon ~ miss me when im not around anymore. sniffs* :(

Principal insists to swift me to exam department and help the college to do the timetable. God! they really find the wrong person already. how can i handle it? it's very very tough for me alright! and yeah, they don't even teach me properly! pfft. sad thing is, three of my colleagues resigned at the same time and we need to take over their works. ahh! i think i will be the next one to resign. coz I've fed up with my work as well.

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i really need somebody to talk to now! but sighed, there's no one here.. no one! D:

Homesick . .

2010-04-08T20:27:00.004+08:00

Worked only half day today cause my family come down and look for me! I felt loveee whenever they are around ~ how i wish that i could follow them home. sighed! Although my home is really near from here. but still, rarely got the chance to go back! D:

went to Sushi King, uncle treat! hehehe.

nom nom nom ~ im still very full now! yeah. compared with Brunei, i can say that their Sushi really tasteless. *thumbs down* i still prefer Kaizen & Excapade instead!! :)

Happy Belated Birthday to Me! :D

2010-04-06T18:09:00.004+08:00

I'm officially 17teen now! hehehe. one more year to legally ~

Spent my birthday with honey and them on Saturday ♥
i was pretty happy at first because they happened to come down and celebrate with me but something happened in between. oh well, spoiled!

had my exam yesterday. done it real bad! Firstly, i didn't prepare for it. Secondly, i'm still SICK! and it makes my mind goes blank! aw. i start to worry about my health now! why is it still the same? its been almost 2 weeks already! sighed D: someone, help meeee! help me to cure my dizziness! sniffs*

dizzy mode ON! will update again ~ ;)

SHERO ♥

2010-04-02T18:26:00.005+08:00

Their new songs were AWESOME! :D
Check it out yo! no regrets.

Good Friday! am having public holiday today. thanks god! cause i got spare time to finish my freaky assignments. hehehe. actually i plan to sleep more, but wake up by a phone call asking me to open the front door just because there is a new housemate moving in! pfft. like im the only one at home that time. geez! >< okay, they come in nevermind. the worst part is that the mother enter my room without asking me! i was like ' what the hell? ' should atleast knock the door and enter right? its a manner okay? =.=

yeaa. another song to intro ;)

黃小琥 - 沒那麼簡單

xx.

Bye March and Hi April !:)

2010-04-01T20:30:00.003+08:00

First of all, i would like to greet everyone who's reading this, Happy April Fool Day ~ did you fool by your friends or family today? well i did! >< my sis fooled me by a message asking whether I'm interested in part time job which pay you RM150 per day. i seriously did believe it! and i thought that no one could fool me successfully. ahh! failed again this year!

oh yeah, reason of the lack updates recently is because I'm sick! really had no strength to even sit here and type things. been having this freaking dizziness for almost one week plus! GOD! what happened? i went to clinic last week, the doctor told me that im having low blood pressure but this morning i went to another one and it says that my blood pressure are normal? pfft!

this is what i need to deal with for the rest of my 2 weeks time! doctor asked me to finish it. ><

now i regret what i've done. sighed! anyway, my colleagues gave me a suprise advanced birthday party just now. sweet! :3 im turning to 17 soon ~ hehehe. 期待-ing! :))

Lastly, follow me on tumblr ~ ^^

Music is lifeeeee =))

2010-03-22T18:10:00.003+08:00

Spent my weekend with cousins yesterday. they gave me a feeling of 'oh-im-home' ! aww. . :)
One of them, my sis. didn't meet her for such a long time. . since the year of 2006 until yesterday. people change, for real! she used to be very fat last time. but now? OMG! almost thinner than me. >< goddd! no, i can't let myself fatter than her! DIET! (actually I'm already on diet now ) hehehe.

this morning, i called some students to inform them that their classes are canceled. and there is one of the call which fly to mailbox service. it says '' hello, the person you call is now currently inside the toilet. please leave your message after the flush *the sound of flushing toilet* '' i was like ' LMAO ' really ah. . . then i go and ask my colleague how to set that. i might set one for myself too. if possible la! haha.

anyway, i found a nice song. . . again! sharing is caring ;)

吳克群 - 寄生

你說我們不會變作回朋友會舒服些
你說你怕太濃烈走得越遠越没感覺

你說時間會沖淡一切距離讓我們好過些
但是你走得越來越遠我却越來越有感覺

我寄生在你的世界多一天
就連自己影子都要看不見
你帶走了什麽你看不見
它卻不斷侵蝕着我每一天

我寄生在你的回憶多一天
就連自己聲音都要聽不見
我哭喊着什麽你聽不見
因為我寄生在回憶里面
在這回憶里面

你說我們不會變作回朋友會舒服些
你說你怕太濃烈走得越遠越没感覺

我想學着忘記這一切學着灑脫酷一點

但是你走得越來越遠我卻越來越有感覺

我寄生在你的世界多一天
就連自己影子都要看不見
你帶走了什麽你看不見
它卻不斷侵蝕着我每一天

我寄生在你的回憶多一天
就連自己聲音都要聽不見
我哭喊着什麽你听不見
因為我寄生在回憶里面
在這回憶里

Time flies.

2010-03-19T17:48:00.004+08:00

It's been one year . . . one year that my father had leave us. Life is really tough without him by our side. without him, i need to rely on my own. people thought that im strong, coz i came out to work in such a young age. but, sighed. . you guys will never know about the pain that im suffering from. . . this morning, a family came to my college and asked for courses. Father, mother, brother & sister. . a blissful family that i envy of. it remind me of my father when i saw them. i remembered, i ever told my father that im going to take business courses once i graduated from Secondary school. . and he just laughed whenever i mention about it. i keep my words, and i really studying the courses now. but he's not here with me anymore. . .

i miss him
i miss his voice
i miss to talk with him
i miss the dishes that he cook
i miss the time when he wake me up every morning
i miss the time when he keep on nagging me to sleep early
i miss the time when he accompany me to toilet in the midnight coz he know that im scared
i miss it when we have jokes about my mum and laugh together
i miss every moment that i spent with him . . . T.T T.T T.T

i really really really miss him :(

sighed, ignore me. im just abit down today . .

Miss Jong :D

2010-03-18T21:39:00.004+08:00

Call me Miss Jong! :D

Call me May! :)

alright~ im being random here. hehehe.

i miss Ideal's spaghetti and Kaizen's sushi so damn muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i wanna eat them up once i back to Seria. hmpf!

Sacrifice for loves one.

2010-03-14T17:21:00.005+08:00

True Love

A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on a motorcycle...

Girl: Slow down, im scared!
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No its not, please, its too scary!
Guy: then tell me you love me.
Girl: I love you, slow down!
Guy: Now give me a big hug.

She gave him a big hug

Guy: Can you take off my helmet and put it on yourself? Its bothering me.

In the newspaper the next day a motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it only one survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road the guy realized that the breaks were broke he didn’t want the girl to know. Instead he had her hug him and tell him she loved him one last time. Then he had her put his helmet on so that she would live even if it meant that he would die.

via Fuck Yeah Love.

aww.. it's sad ='(

Sympathy myself! D:

2010-03-13T22:01:00.003+08:00

Puppy camouflage with towel! I actually can't distinguish the puppy from the towel when i first look at it. i thought both of them are towels.. until i spot the nose. hahaha!

the body too wrinkly, that's why! but isn't it cute? ;)

GAAAHHHHHH! I'm working tomorrow! Sunday mahnnnnn~ i really sympathy myself. * sobs *

2010-03-12T21:25:00.002+08:00

he looks adorable to the max ! love ♥

my classes were canceled for this week due to the new born baby of my lecturer. he show us the photo this morning, CUTE!! oh, i had a really WEIRD and RANDOM dream yesterday. * luckily i'm back to reality * thanksgod! ><

missed

2010-03-08T21:43:00.004+08:00

:( :( :(

anyway, i've finished my exams! and it was quite easy. yeay-me! going to start my new subject on wednesday. goodbye principle of management shits! hehehe.

Invigilator

2010-03-03T18:39:00.004+08:00

When I'm still studying in Secondary school, i thought that invigilate students are a fun task. until today.. i found it NOT! well, this morning i was asked to do the invigilator for students in my college.. for the first time. hello? I'm at the administration department not exam department! my colleague was so kind that she put me as the invigilator of the class WITHOUT asking my permission! luckily I'm free by that time if not, don't think i will help her. pfft! -.- It's really boring inside the classroom can? i sat there for like 3 hours hoping that the students can finish their exam paper earlier, so that i can back to office earlier also. next time i should bring my laptop along, so that i can online while invigilating. since there is wireless in the college. hehehe.

alright, we celebrated Raymond's birthday in the office just now. Mr.Peter manage to make him cry, as what we had plan earlier. Spoiled his mood before giving him the suprise. =P

a 20 years old baby is crying! laugh dieeeee ~ xD

2010-02-28T14:21:00.002+08:00

I'm so obsessed with him ~ ♥♥♥

2010-02-26T21:29:00.004+08:00

Changed my blog skin ;)

oh, i lost some of the links.. coz i accidently erased all the code when im editing the layout just now. if your link aren't here, please do kindly remind me in the Cbox. sorry and thanks!

im back in Brunei again, for chap goh meh. hehehe.
know what? i wanted to put an aircon in my hostel room, but the principal not allowed to.. forget about it then. now i wanted to swift to another room with aircon, a double room. and she say that i can't stay in the room alone, must share with someone! MALAS loo! i willing to pay more for that fcking small room already, what you expect again? ishhh ishh ish! >< i don't like to share room with people coz its uncomfortable you know.. like no privacy at all. somemore it's a stranger. if close friend then nevermind la. but a stranger, hell no! sighed. i really can't stand for night without aircon~ hot dieeeeeeee! something funny, i chatted with a ball-less guy just now. name also don't know how to differentiate. he thought that 'may' was a guy! TSK! and he only know how to swear with wrong spelling! *sweat*

spot those wrongly-spelled swear words? ;) i wonder why he left the conversation, if not we can continue. sad. HAHAHAHA!

2010-02-19T14:30:00.001+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-02-14T20:27:00.005+08:00

Hey y'all! I'm back to blog~ ;)

Was busying for my works & classes for the whole January. *Stress* I'm currently at Seria now, for CNY celebration! back home back home~ And yeah, i found out that home is always the most comfortable place compared with others! seriously! >< It's hard to live alone outside without your family by your side.. i know, it's time for me to learn how to be independent. but still, it's better that your family are by your side right? Can say that i learned a lot of new thing, like how to social with others and so on.. within this few weeks. and there are a lot of thing happened to me too, but it's impossible for me to drop down every single thing here right? so i think i'll just summarize it? hehehe. okay, speaking about my job. i don't really like it, coz its... BORING! like everyday do the same thing. filing, printing, typing and photocopying. my colleagues are funny and friendly except for one of them. ish. lazy to mention now.. maybe next time. then about my classes, most of my classmates are adults.. only few of them are teenagers. sad :( the things that im studying now are mostly similar to what i used to study in secondary school. like.. commerce! my favourite subject :) i'll be having my exam on next month. GG! so fast~

Anyway, im herby to greet all of you Happy Chinese NewYear!
and also, Happy Valentine to all the couples! ;) enjoy your day with your loves one!

好想知道你的一百分会给怎样的人

2010-01-02T20:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! AND GOODBYE TO THE YEAR 2009(the worst year ever).

I'm happy to celebrate my new year eve with them at Miri! Count down at Balcony & after that we went to Victoria. I saw my special someone at Victoria, didn't expect that i will see him again. hehehe. By the way, we're separating.. already. I mean the six of us. sighed. tears are falling off from my eyes when i received Nee's message this morning saying that she's leaving. I really really wish that i could turn back the time.. back to where our friendship just established! then i would have more time to appreciate you guys. I know it's impossible, but nevermind.. as long as we have created a good and happy memories by spending our school time together =')

I'm leaving to Miri tomorrow too. Cause i need to start my work on this coming Monday which means the 4th of January. A month before my school reopen. oh yeah, I'm taking courses of Business Management in IBS College(keep on forgetting to mention about it). some of them say that it's hard.. grr! i dread for it seriously! new surroundings, new school, new career, new friends and new life! :O

anyway, this blog won't be active that often anymore.. but still, i will try to update if i got the chance to. alright? kay, that's it.. will end this post with some of the photos we took.

hotel room.

in the lift.

xiao tong & me @Balcony

alright, bye guys! xoxo

2009-12-25T18:22:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone ♥

my baby pooh also celebrating Christmas yo :D heheh.
anyway, have blast everyone!
xoxo

2009-12-20T20:53:00.010+08:00

Went to Jerudong Park on Saturday.. I'm disappointed cause most of those excited games like Roller coaster and Ferris wheel are being sold to Thailand, which i wanted to play it so badly.. :( well, Bumper car and Merry go round can say is the most enjoyable games that i played on that night. We didn't make it to play the water boat cause the park close very early! Like around 11pm+.. i thought that the closing time in weekends will be late than weekdays, who know its the same! aww.. too bad! should go there earlier next time.

Photos are uploaded in Facebook :)

After Jerudong Park, we went to Empire as Huey say that she wants to watch Avatar. So we watched it around 12:30am. Luckily the movie is still airing during that time.

mm.. what can i say about it? just two words.. two words, it's AWESOME! I rate it 5stars. heheh. Can say that this movie, Avatar is much much more better than 2012. Don't know what will you guys think about it la, but for me it's really... nice! :D JAKE SULLY, the main character of this movie. A paraplegic army who was being brought to another planet, Pandora. He is really a brave person who accept challenges without any hesitation! I likey this type of boys. ^^

Before leaving the house to Bandar, me and Huey were vaining with the webcam! and i love the photos very much. hohoho!

with my new spectacle :D

There are still alot more in my Facebook's profile, too much to post it here. *embarrassing* =P Well, guess that it.. Oh yeah, not to forget about my 2 beloveds!!

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO JANICE DAUGHTER & HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO MANN BABY! (supposed to be belated) ><

sorry that i didn't celebrate with you two.. :( but yeah, love you guys to the max! *hugs* 长大了 loo.. heheh. ♥♥♥

2009-12-13T23:41:00.003+08:00

王錚亮 - 數到三，一起放手

This song is GREAT! As in the lyrics and the way it composed. the MV makes me cry.. It's so so sad.. D: try to watch it!

有些回憶值得一輩子去紀念
當時間魔法沖淡了遺憾
你要自己撐過明天
不要再眷戀
等有對的人能跟你團圓
我才能夠放心的走遠
我和你數到三就一起放手情願你恨我
你不知道我多難過思念匯成河
和你數到三就一起放手別再受折磨
讓愛停在最美時候
未來的生活也許更寂寞
這是唯一的選擇有些痛我們會懂
所以才會放手讓你走

2009-12-08T23:42:00.003+08:00

I don't know who to believe.. there are too much lies in people nowadays -___-

It's better to believe in ME. heheh.

Anyway, i went to Miri and had my job interview this morning. it's just like an English oral, luckily the Principal is quite friendly. mm.. i think i got it? but still, i have to wait for their confirmation now. hopefully i can get my ass out of Seria(the dead town) before January.. cause im getting really bored of here already! oh yeah, i got my College's timetable this morning too.. my classes start on the 1st of February instead of January, night classes! woohoo~ this is what i want. :)

I'm ready, yes i do.

2009-12-06T17:00:00.010+08:00

I put Kah Fai's photo as my current Msn display picture. Guess what? some of them thought that he was my boyfriend. HAHAH! see the chat log.

I never thought that they will believe in it. who knows... heheh. and yet, i lazy to explain that it was actually a joke of mine, so just let it be. :) whoa, i got such a handsome boyfiee! (A)

Went to Bandar yesterday with Huey, Jin, Lung & Alex. another Alex again.. im wondering why there are so many Alex(s) in Belait district. *frowns* we went to Shabu Shabu for steamboat.. not bad. no wonder the restaurant is always crowded and hard to get a place for yourself if you didn't reserved before going there. we used half a hour to find the restaurant you know --" i remember how the building looks like and its surrounding, but i don't know which way to go. while Jin keep on saying it's in the Kiulap Mall. fine, we let him go in and find the restaurant IN VAIN. cuz he don't believe me maa. tsk tsk! at last we end up asking people where it is. *embarrassing*

We finished our steamboat meal around 10.30pm, the last customers to leave. then off to Mall cause they want to look for Cds. while we're on the way to the Cd's shop, we bumped into their friends, Mei ting. she told me that she is Mike's sister.. i was like are you kidding? cause she doesn't look alike with them tho. she asked us to join their party at the 1st Imporium hotel for her friend, Josephine's 21st birthday. we're joining since we got no where to go plus its kinda early for us to go back Seria. hmm.. saw some familiar faces there. after we reach the hotel not long, we start to play cards. Huey and Alex get drunk! boooo! noob drinker kaliah. heheh. I told her not to play because i knew that she would get drunk for sure. Our face turned red after gulping few cups of Vodka. but im getting better after awhile :) Alex more worst. he looks normal, like he's not drunk. he even used the blanket to cover Huey and talk with us. he told us that he can manage to control himself from getting drunk thats why his face doesn't turn red. who knows few minutes later i saw him holding a plastic bag and vomit at the dining room. LOL! '没个大头就不要带大帽子'. they carry him to the bed room and let him rest. I sat there and chat with Jin while waiting for the two of them to wake up. after 15mins+ Huey already alright but yet, the Alex still lying on the bed. We gotta leave.. cause its almost 3am so the boys helped us to carry Alex back to the car.

tskx3 told ya not to drink so much. (A)

I keep on remind him not to vomit in the car if not i might kick him out of the car. and blablabla~ thats it.. malas story already.

i like this photo of us :)

"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better." by Samuel Beckett, Worstward Ho

2009-11-30T21:09:00.005+08:00

I went to Miri last Saturday and overnight there. most of the Hotels are fully booked that day. so, under a not-so-willing way, we stay in Mega hotel! God, their service & facilities really badd.. i will never ever stay there when i overnight at Miri next time, i will rather stay in those cheap inn instead. just the car park basement, it already took us like half a hour to find it.. the lifts are not working either so we need to walk down by stair! the beds are small and the blankets & pillows smell weird.. extra charges included in our bill if we go for Sauna and Steam Bath. hey, i thought it should be free of charge for those who stayed in the hotel? tsk tsk! and alot more loo, i lazy to state all of them out.. etc etc~ *picky me* mm.. i prefer Grand Palace, it's much moreeee better! Guess what? before we check-out, we done something fishy. heheh. my friend, he left a note for us before he went out on Saturday.. the note, we still keep it until the next day(which means yesterday). Before we check-out, i stick it on the mirror.. curious about whats the note about? will show you guys the photo. ^^ and, we filled the form in the drawer.. forms like if you're not satisfied with their service you can complain or leave your comments. We tick all "NO", cause most of the questions asking, do you think that our service is good?, are you comfortable with our room? and etc... with someone's name. we even left a phone number there too.. muahaha!

" I go out find chix ♥ anything call me " the person who wrote this is just beside the note.. not going to drop his name here. =P

Damn it, my leg really hurt now.. stepped by a girl when we're dancing in Balcony that night, with her thin high-heel's stick! my skin really peel off okay. after we back to hotel then i realised that it's bleeding. pfft... next time if i go clubbing again, i will wear a high heel with thin stick too.. i swear it! just to get my revenge. hohoh! Oh yeah, i cut my hair already. not much different, just the front become shorter only.. back to fringe. atleast my hair look healthier now, compare with last time. cause all those coloured & damaged hairs had been cut off.. for now, I'll just leave it to grow longer & thicker.. not going to dye or cut it again. I want a long & thick hair! hmm.. guess thats it. lazy to type so much.. ^^

It's December now~ last month of the year! well, hope things would get better this month :)

xx.

2009-11-25T19:35:00.004+08:00

Went to school to take my forecast result this morning. well, my forecast result was like oh-so-good.. hehehe. how i wish that i really can get the same in my O'levels. i plan to photocopy few copies of it. i know, im crazy but.. it's hard for me to get such a good result like this in reality :D

mm.. i realized that, my eye brows are freaking THICK and UGLY. i should had pluck it earlier but, i scared it will hurt. i told Mann about it and she say, "don't pluck it forever then." laugh-out-loud~ so maybe im going to pluck it tomorrow. and my hair, i wanted to shorten it again.. cuz i want the length to be equal & not layered. now, there's too much layers and i don't likey! see what other style will the hairstylists suggest, if there's another style better than shorten it then i would keep it long.. as y'all know, my hair grow VERY slow == Kahzai helped us to book already, Kelvin's saloon on this Sat. im looking forward to it! ^^

alright, do you guys watched Kumar's video at youtube? the professional joker. here's one of his video, try to watch it! im pretty sure that you all will laugh your ass off!

Some people say that they can't live without love.. but, i think oxygen is more important to us.

2009-11-24T21:38:00.003+08:00

Just got back home from school's graduation night! im finally graduated from secondary school. =') surprisingly, no one is crying this year.. neither do i. GOODBYE to Chung Ching. alright, im feeling sad and glad at the same time.. sad because we all will be separated and rarely will meet each others. glad because our new principal was really strict and fierce, luckily we're leaving~ goodluck to our juniors! hehehe.

你施舍的寂寞, 让我比一无所有更难过.
我不奢求给我一个结果
如果要走, 至少要告诉我.

你的爱我已经不懂我的爱没有用
如果你问起我假装不痛...

i miss you, much.

2009-11-23T18:59:00.009+08:00

This post is specially dedicate to someone who i appreciate and trusted the most in my life. we, from strangers turned into friend, from friend turned to bestie. then now, we're more like a family.. a sister of mine. she will always be there whenever im down, to be a good listener of mine. and she is the one who tolerate and compromised me if i put on my temper towards her. im sorry, i don't mean it.. cuz my mood just swing like the weather. but i know, she wouldn't mind about it. i know her since i was still studying in primary school until now. we faced and experienced alot of thing together. thus, there are alot of memories to recall. hehee :D our friendship already lasted for almost 8 years, ofcourse there are some arguements in between, but it doesn't affect much of our friendship. aww.. i love her to death ♥

just a current photo of me & her.

anyway, im hereby to greet her.. or you (if you're reading it)

" HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!
Love you lots, honey <3 "

2009-11-19T22:52:00.005+08:00

I'm craving for sushi right now! Salmon salmon! I should go and eat it asap! >.<

Today.. nothing much happened. i just got back from Miri and im hereby to blog again since i've nothing to do. mm.. did you guys realize that people out there are so "cheap" nowadays? all of them were just a great talker but when it comes to reality, they will just find some excuses to drag and drag the time. eg:- you promise your friend to do certain things earlier, and later end up with dragging the time with some lame excuses.. until they forget about it. but you know, this is not the worst part.. the worst part is, your friend already know that you're lying! Okay, the reason that i blogged about this is because, the same incident happened to my friend lately. let's name the person Z.. this Z, promised my friend to help her celebrate her birthday this year.. i still remember vividly every words that Z told my friend. he say that he gonna booked a room for her, treat her to restaurant and mv then swimming and alot alot! all of this sounds nice right? but now, guess what? this Z, told my friend that he's lack of money and unable to help her celebrate her birthday. because he borrowed his money to his friend.. lets name him A. okay, Z told my friend that he borrow his money to A for car repairing. while this Z, he doesn't know that me and A often chat in MSN. just yesterday when A chatted with me in MSN, i asked him about the car repairing thingy.. guess what he say? he told me that his car still functioned well, why need to repair? i was like *LOL* in a not-so-funny way. my friend got cheated by Z!! hey, if you're not willing to help her celebrate, then why you promise her at the first place with your so-called great plans? pfft.. what a great liar are you huh! =.=

right.. enough of Blabla-ing here. hahah! im not angry anyway, its just that i don't like those great talker like Z! thats it.. Gonna end this post with my current obsession. :)

my type of guy! i likey :D

you and i together, its just feel alright~
xoxo;

2009-11-18T20:31:00.006+08:00

HELLO IM BACKKKK! this blog is going to be active again! :D sorry for abandoning this blog for almost 2months, i don't mean it. Alright, im officially free now! *shout* GCE examinations just finished few days ago.. while for Malaysia's students, their SPM examinations are just about to start. i thought that Brunei would be the slowest to finish. who knows.. hah! the exam was... alright i guess? except for POA, C.SCI & ENG. for POA, i can't manage to finish. i believe that most of them can't finish too right? the questions are just too much compared with our school's exam. for ENG, i wrote out of topic for the composition! Damn it! 20% gone you know? and C.SCI, i only depends on my *kalok-ness*, as the paper1 lies on the last day of exam.. i seriously don't have the mood to study for it already. hopefully i can passed all of em! i don't want to retest, it's just a wasted of time only.

Okay, my secondary life is over now. times for me to decide where to go. i plan to find a part time job in here(Brunei) actually, but im not local people and i don't have a red IC.. thus it's hard for me to get a job here.. not even part time. so for now, i can only stay at home and enjoy my holidays~ and yeah, congrats to some of my friends who already found their job! :) i MIGHT be going back to Malaysia next year as its hard for me to stay in Brunei here, cause everything i plan to do or apply need Red IC. tired of it already.. instead of continue staying in Brunei here, why don't i go back to my own hometown where things are much more easier for me.. right? it's just a plan of mine at the moment, still haven't comfirm yet. but yeah, i do hope to have a new beginnings in other countries, as long as im out of Brunei. One more thing, im so not looking forward to next year, i feel dread for it.. seriously. cause i face a lot of unacceptable fact this year, and i think it's really enough for me already? 2009, really ain't my year! >.< >hahah. will update again~

Life is just like a long marathon, you can't stop, but to keep moving on.

here's a passage that i found it really nice and meaningful. (only for readers who can read chinese)

别让生命有太多的逾憾

你改变不了环境, 但你可以改变自己.

没人能够永远幸福和开心的过每一天.
没有人能够坦然的面对自己的坚强和软弱.
是经历和磨难让我们变得更加成熟.
是宽容和爱使我们幸福.
是理解和信任让我们安心.

你改变不了事实, 但你可以改变态度.

不知为何, 有些事就是无法改变.
或许, 是因为还没有找到真正的梦想.
或许, 还在追求那永远都不会有的完美.
曾几何时, 我们虚荣过, 幻想过, 为狭益的目标奋斗过.
但当你重新回头看待这一切时, 你会觉得很多事情都淡轻了很多.

你改变不了过去, 但你可以改变现在.

过去的就让它过去, 会在未来走得更加好.
因为抛弃了不必要的包袱, 生活才会更美好.
前面还有很多的事情要你去做, 很多重要的人让你去珍惜.
不要回头看, 前面的世界才会更美满.

你不知明天会给你带来何事, 但你可以把握今天.

"森林里有一个分岔口, 我愿选择脚印少的那条路, 这样我的一生会载然不同."
宁可走一条多人走路, 为何不换一条路走走, 或许一切将会是另一种样子.
把握住自己的今天, 让接下来的日子过得更幸福.

xoxo;

2009-09-27T13:27:00.002+08:00

Aww.. It's the last day of holidays today! Tomorrow gonna continue our Mock exams!

GOODLUCK TO ALL THE FORM5 STUDENTS! remember, not to study HARD but, to study SMART! :D

FYI: this blog aren't going to be active for months i guess. reasons are

My GCE O'levels examination are going to start on the 15 of Oct ( 2weeks left ).
I might be busy for my studies ( as y'all know, i always study at the eleventh hour ) .
i will catch up with my Taiwan series IF there are spare time for me ( instead of surfing the net ).
Lazy ( as always ).

so yeah. :)

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful. They can all get fucked, just stay true to you.

2009-09-22T18:18:00.010+08:00

Hello!

i've no idea why, im craving for steamboat now! the thought just suddenly pop out in my mind, saying ' steamboat steamboat! '.. well, i miss the time when we gathered together in Mann's house, steamboat-ing and gossip-ing about those hot topics & news in our schools or some of the randoms people out there. :D its been a while since we last gathered, cuz most of them were busy studying for the upcoming exams.

went to Bandar yesterday to watch this..

Hilarious and scary at the same time. there are three stories in this movie, each story carries a quotes in the end. i only remembered one of the quotes, ' there are price to pay for every shortcut we take ' something like that.. i don't really remember it clearly. as you know, i had a short-term memory. sniff* i only know that i laugh all the way from the beginning till the end of the movie. yeah, i plan to buy donuts after we finish our movie. but sadly, the shop already closed when we came out from the cinema.. i want strawberry donuts!! x(

sighs.. my hairs are getting thinner and thinner. i miss my old hair! i miss my thick fringe. hopefully it would grow back during year ends. i want a thick thick frindge. something like..

this.

but, you see how THIN is my hair now!

i mean my front hair. really thin right? i like Huey's hair. cuz its healthy and thick.. she told me that she ate alot of vegetables, thats why. well, i started to eat as much vegetables as i can nowadays and i finally know how to eat the vegetable's stalk already. * congrats to myself! :D *

Lastly, SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY MALAY KAWAN(S) cheers! ^^

2009-09-20T21:40:00.009+08:00

a week of holidays had pass so far.. and i still haven't start study for my upcoming mock examinations yet. not even a letter of it.. what a wasted of time right? although i know im wasting my time but still, saya malas to study. * heheh *

hmm.. let see what im busying with this few days. oh, im busy dating with my baby Mahjong and Rummy! yes, im playing Mahjong and Rummy this few days.. no i mean this few nights! kinda addicted to it i guess.. wonder why i always win alot at first but lose alot in the end.. -____- lets had a glance at my babies ^^

my Baby Mahjong.

and also Baby Rummy :)

actually im playing tonight again.. but, i want to save up my money and also sleep early! cuz i sleep really late this few nights. scared later my kawan come and visit me again :S hahah! FYI my ' kawan ' refers to headache.

well, went to Fratini just now.. around 12noon like that. we ordered pasta and pizza since they are having 50% offer again. but cant manage to finish the pizza, our tummy had already full with pasta. luckily we didn't order any dessert, if not we will be wasting our money >.<

a silly photo of me. don't laugh! :$

okay, think thats all! will update soon. bye guys~

It may be fate that bring us back to meet again someday eventhough we go seperate ways .. ♥

2009-09-14T20:34:00.004+08:00

Hello my beloved readers! :D

well, suppose that holidays already start today. but we still need to go back school for extra classes. did you guys know that what time our extra classes dismiss? it start from 7:20AM as usual, untill 1/1:15PM. what the hell?! its longer than our normal classes! oh, not to forget about my Malay oral last week. it's not as well as i predicted. the girl examiner really unfriendly at all! she even made few of my friends cried. heres my friend, she cant find her answer in the passage then the girl examiner bang the table, throw her IC back to her and told her " dapat kosong lah kamuni! ". gosh! as an examiner, they should be polite no? and also, she has no patience at all! i only asked her to repeat the question then she scold me for that. i hope that she will get complain by MOE! and one thing, im failing my Malay oral for sure cuz i didn't speak much. oh whatever! i don't care~

oh yes, yesterday i went to bandar to watch Orphan! Gelato for Chicken toasts and Double Choco and Snowhouse for Banana Chocolates. :)

one of the main character, Esther.

Esther isn't a 9 year-old girl at all, but a 33-year-old women! she act as an orphan to seduce the father in the family, if she cant make it she will killed all the family members and burnt the house. overall, this movie was nice and abit scary! :O i wanna watch " Where got ghosts? " next, a Singapore movie. hoho!

Let time to blow off the past.

2009-09-06T01:49:00.004+08:00

time passed really fast. don't you think so? it's September now! daddy had leave us for almost 6months.. although life are tough without him, but we still need to move on no matter what. daddy, i know you are always protecting and blessing us in the heaven ^^

our mock examination started today, having English this morning. hmm.. the comprehension's passage were hard, i don't really understand what the whole passage is about. plus we need to use our own word to answer most of the questions. and yeah, not to forget about my English Oral during last week. It goes pretty well, cuz both of the examiners are very very friendly. for the conversation section, they asked me about my ambition which i already prepared for it earlier. lucky me! i will be having my Malay Oral this coming Wednesday, wondering what topic will they ask me.. most of my classmates say that its hard and the examiners aint friendly at all. * GG *

i went to Bandar just now. well, it's like finally.. finally i watched the Final Destination 4! been waiting it for very long time already.. :D

thumbs up thumbs up (Y) one thing, it's really really horror! i think im going to have nightmares later :S but overall, it was awesome! cuz i love to watch horror movie more than those romance which make me ended up sleeping inside the cinema. i plan to watch Orphan next, which kind-hearted person willing to bring me go Bandar again? * Muahaha! *

Fireworks represented our love,
it's beautiful when we burn it.
But, the beautiful moment can only lasts for a short period of time..

2009-08-23T21:58:00.008+08:00

Having a day off on Saturday due to those Malay's fasting month.. well, they gonna suffer for not eating food from morning untill evening and also can't drink a drop of water too right? if i'm not mistaken. Happy fasting month! ;)

this morning i went shopping with Huey hun at Seria town. there are stalls selling shirts, pants, shoes and those accessories for girls in Plaza now. guess what? we found a " Smiley Face " watch, it's so cute! so me and Huey decided to buy it.

the Pink one belongs to me :D

after helping my mum to buy some stuff, we went to Kaizen for lunch. actually it's my breakfast, cause i still haven't feed my stomach since i wake up. Sushi sushi ~ eat quite alot.. with no regrets! HEHE. mm.. afterthat we met Ah wen at mee stall there and went to arcade together. i sing alot today!

my front hair getting longer~ im thinking whether i should make it back to fringe or just put it a side. they say put it a side look so old -__- oh yeah! im once again addicted to MAHJONG! played with my bro, Sally and Vivien just now. and, i lose alot of $$ * sniff *

lastly, i got a song to share with you guys ;)

小宇 - 就站在這裡

It's his new songs. aww.. i love his voice very muchiee! here's the vid ;

Enjoy :)

就算我知道你已变了
变得不在意
我还在这里 ...

2009-08-19T23:27:00.003+08:00

BIG APPLE DONUTS .
oh so yum yum !! :D

Finally, my 3rd-term examination ended * fullstop *
i had done really badly in most of the subjects cause i didn't put much effort to study for it.
but nevermind, i will work harder for mock exam. and yeah, oral examination coming so so soon. Im worrying for my Malay. Urghh! i can't speak well.. my hair colour get complaint by teacher when im having oral practical last week. i think i should tie it next week, if not my mark will be deduct for sure..

think that's all for today. gonna off to bed soon, tomorrow still got class! there are no holidays for us. * pity pity sympathy *

before i end this post, im going to show you guys a super KAWAII boys ^^

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oh-so-cutex ~ LOL!

2009-08-11T21:02:00.002+08:00

INACTIVE MODE ON .

Say ' Hello ' to my notes again. *waves*
Will be back soon ;)

*gone*

2009-08-07T15:21:00.008+08:00

God! im getting fatter.. i think i really need to start diet from now on. but, i need someone or something to motivate me. urghh~ i realized that i always promised myself not to eat much but at last i didn't do so.. because i really cannot resists the temptation for putting the food into my mouth, chewed it and swallowed it! tell me why oh why ~ ha ha! oh yeah, six more days to 3rd term examinations. i still cant catch up what the teacher teach about.. i wanted to attend the extra classes but always ended up by taking afternoon nap at home.

having headache recently, i wonders what had happen to my poor body *raise eyebrow* well, i decided to take blood test tomorrow or maybe on Monday.

Okay, yesterday Kahzai brought us, Me, Mann, Nee and Siew to Excapade for sushi! reach there around 8:30 as we already booked the table there.

I didn't ate much yesterday, because of the stupid headache that makes me no appetite to eat. guess what? We vain alot infront of the toilet's mirror, i think we have spent half hour for that?

There are still alot more at my facebook profile. he he! well, afterthat we decided to go DQ buy ice-creams, who knows they already closed. *tsk tsk* i wonder why most of the shops closed so early. that's why we called it a ' dead town ' .

; miss.

2009-08-03T20:44:00.005+08:00

today..
the smells of haze made me vomit.. and it makes me hard to breathe too! when i back home, i saw my neighbours burning those grass along with some rubbish at the back of my house. God! don't they know there are already hazes? still burning their rubbish. somemore my bathroom is at the back of my house too, which mean that its near to the area where their rubbish were burnt. im suffering while i bath just now. tsk tsk!

Kahzai brought us to Ideal this evening, to eat their chicken spaghetti. delicious yum yum ~ i will never ever get fedup of it, cause its just too delicious for me! i think i ate alot this few days uhh, yesterday my mum brought me to Kaizen for sushi also.. i supposed to diet no? haha!

spot the words " BABI " ? actually its " BABU " instead. Kahzai took the 'U' down and make it into 'I' and stick it back to there again, cause we dare her to do so. HEHE!

FYI : we are not acting cute, we are just imitating someone someone x. ^^

hopefully there won't be any haze tomorrow again, if not im going to suffer again!

; 也许在你眼里它只是个游戏 ..